True ME

They say that I have two personalities: (The one that they see smiling, laughing, and a bit goofy...and the other who is silent, lonely and short-tempered...) I didn't realize that I was changing when I entered my second year high school. They say, that my second side was the opposite of me. But, to tell you the truth, I discovered my dark side when I was in first year high school. My dark side began to show itself when I was in second year high school. And I realized it when it was already February, when the campaigning for the next Student's Government Body. After, hearing such news about something I don't know personal or what...I began changing.

+_Flashback_+>>>

It was mid-February when the election for the next Student's Government Body was drawing near a friend of ours told us something personal...that made me change that instant. I noticed that my patience began to burn short, and that I became silent and aloof... While, I was eating my lunch with some of my friends I noticed that I wasn't in the mood of eating my lunch. And then, that person passed by the window made my mood change again I don't know how am I suppose to tell this but I felt like I was being held against my own will to feel such hatred to that person...
Even, my friends didn't accept that fact about someone we know would do such a thing. My friends were talking about that person saying that "That person really has the guts to that thing.", they started to ask me why I became silent after hearing that news, they said that I was affected, not only me but also my friends were affected. They said that it was a shame for that person, it really came to the point that the person ended up hurting the feelings of "its" friends.

After, I ate my lunch a candidate came to our window and asked "Who is the person close to "it"?"she asked us, one of my friends said that "It was her. The girl that is getting some things in her locker." actually I knew it was me. I was close to that person. And my friends said that "She has guts to ask us about the close friend of that person." they were protecting me...
And said that, "Don't she dare pull "it" away from you. Because "it" is only your closest friend." Even though, those words were kind of nice, I still don't want "it" to be away from me. ("It" is my closest friend. I don't want to be separated "it" from me...)that's what I keep telling myself. It's not that I was being selfish that time, but it kinda made me feel envious, or what angry, because she changed "its" attitude. "It" started to avoid us, when we needed "Its" help, "It" would only say "You can do that. Just keep trying." It feels like that girl changed "Its" attitude.

My friends said that it seems like I wasn't happy for "Its" victory. I'm happy for "It" really, but I was feeling a bit uneasy. I was thinking that day that "It" won, could "It" cope up with "Its" study. And my dark side began to show itself everyday...that was the start of my dark side.... <<<+_End of Flashback_+
I have realized that I've changed alot to my dark side, that began to show...I wanted to hide my dark personality as long as I could, but I guess it can't be helped. I can't hide her anymore, she'll be playing the music for awhile. I thought, the real one was going to play the game but it seemed like the dark one wanted to play the game. After, asking my classmates about my attitude changing, it seems like the dark one showed herself to them, the aloof, silent, and moody personality...
Should I tell them about this new me or just let them tell me that I have a new me...I guess, I'm still playing the game. But, you know what, I'm playing my own game and I'm playing another game I don't know what it's called but kinda nice, though... Indeed, how I wish that this game would continue, but I'm feeling kinda bored with the pawns,so, I was thinking of adding another pawn to the game, to make it exciting...and to fill the game with I don't know, mixed feelings maybe. (It seems like the dark one is taking over again. It's okay, the dark me, is very different from the real me. So don't worry everything will go according to my game.)
Indeed, when I asked my classmates if I changed then, they said that I really changed...it was like another me who I was showing them... I could accept the fact that I created another personality in me, a personality which is opposite to the real...Well, I guess this personality is that you can call the Aloof-type... In my previous post, you could sense that the mood changed a bit. In my current state, since, I'm not around with crowds maybe the dark personality will show itself again, it won't allow the old personality to show up again because the dark one wants to let everyone know that they must accept the new me, or the me can begin to be my dark personality...

I like the dark me, but, there are still hindrances along the way...if this continues the game wouldn't end, as what I planned. They said I'm only putting myself in a situation I didn't wished for, but how can I deny the opportunity, if the opportunity that came, is the one I have been waiting for. Just think of it, when the new semester starts they don't know anything about me, anymore... Another new me, it seems like there's another game waiting for me again, a game that will surely give them a shock...
Let's just wait and see, if the new game will be nicely done, and I shall have new ones to play with.

(Note:
My dark personality only shows itself when I'm with my pawns, so don't worry if you're not a pawn. I won't show you my dark personality. Just remember that, I won't show you my dark personality if you are not worthy of being one of my pawns.)

*I'm just another pretty face who passed by you. You're just a stranger with a known name.*
And here's what I like say to "It":
Despite, the fact that men are fools, you don't have to push yourself to realize what you have done.